So this is it, I guess.
I felt like I should start somewhere, and I guess tumblr is that place (?) Anyway. I suppose this is where I introduce myself.
Hi. The above picture is one I took of myself like five minutes ago. I took it because I’m tired of looking how I do, and I feel ready to change. It’s going to be hard, but I started this blog for some level of accountability. Even if no one reads it, it exists, and I can go back and see the things I write, and I will KNOW it exists.
I am 6’0, and I weighed 269 pounds when I last checked a week ago. This is pretty unacceptable. And I’m not doing this for other people. I’m enrolled in a good university, I have a lot of friends, good grades, and a boyfriend. Being fat isn’t affecting my daily life, except for the crushing lack of self-esteem that I experience most days. I’m currently in the middle of one of my self-hating spirals, which I guess is my motivation.
Point is, I’m going to lose weight. I’m not going to track my food on here (even though I do, privately.) I am just going to put my weekly progress along with thoughts, and how I’m feeling, and struggles, and all that nonsense. But it starts today, and I will work to improve myself, for ME, and no one else. I will be a better me. I’ve been fat since I was a kid, and it’s time to break that cycle. I will eat healthy, and work out, and not stop until I am who I want to be.
My first goal is to lose twenty pounds. Let’s do it.