Since June 2nd, I have lost 12.4 pounds. I am 1.6 away from having lost 5% of my body weight. After gaining MORE weight during my spring semester at school, I decided that this summer I was really going to change myself. I’d made that promise before, but this summer, my hard work and sacrifices have finally yielded the results I wanted. When I got home from Mississippi, I started going to Weight Watchers and exercising more, and I’m really pleased with my results. I’m finally doing it. (Note: I gained about six pounds spring semester, but with my recent weight loss I’m still six pounds under my starting weight on this blog, putting me at 263.4 lbs right now.)
It just goes to show you that your first attempts may fail, but if you have a goal you really want, it WILL happen for you if you don’t give up.
Right now, you might be thinking about the one or five slices of pizza you ate last night, or the extra calories you drank, or maybe you regret feeding your emotions until the point of no self-control. You feel like absolute shit. You don’t want to see or talk to anyone. Another binge. Another day…
with a frozen pizza and I feel gross
How am I only a few days into my weight loss venture and I’m already doing poorly?
Ugh. I feel like kind of a failure already and I’ve only just begun, but I can’t let this feeling get to me or else I’ll stop before I’ve even begun.
I WANNA PUT ROCKS IN THE “POUNDS LOST” JAR :(
I just got hit with the feeling of how attainable this is. I’ve been telling myself for so long that “oh, it’s impossible, people do it, but I can’t.”
You know what? Why CAN’T I lose a hundred pounds? It just requires some dedication, some willpower, and some veggies.
I can do this. I can be the person I want to. The only person stopping me is myself.
Trying to lose weight? Try setting a goal weight to reach with this clever pounds lost visual. You can decorate two glasses however you like and fill the pounds to go glass with the amount of pounds you want to lose. Whenever you lose a pound, place it in the pounds lost glass. Set these glasses somewhere convenient so you are reminded of the work you need to do and the accomplishments you’ve made so far!
So this is it, I guess.
I felt like I should start somewhere, and I guess tumblr is that place (?) Anyway. I suppose this is where I introduce myself.
Hi. The above picture is one I took of myself like five minutes ago. I took it because I’m tired of looking how I do, and I feel ready to change. It’s going to be hard, but I started this blog for some level of accountability. Even if no one reads it, it exists, and I can go back and see the things I write, and I will KNOW it exists.
I am 6’0, and I weighed 269 pounds when I last checked a week ago. This is pretty unacceptable. And I’m not doing this for other people. I’m enrolled in a good university, I have a lot of friends, good grades, and a boyfriend. Being fat isn’t affecting my daily life, except for the crushing lack of self-esteem that I experience most days. I’m currently in the middle of one of my self-hating spirals, which I guess is my motivation.
Point is, I’m going to lose weight. I’m not going to track my food on here (even though I do, privately.) I am just going to put my weekly progress along with thoughts, and how I’m feeling, and struggles, and all that nonsense. But it starts today, and I will work to improve myself, for ME, and no one else. I will be a better me. I’ve been fat since I was a kid, and it’s time to break that cycle. I will eat healthy, and work out, and not stop until I am who I want to be.
My first goal is to lose twenty pounds. Let’s do it.